Friday, September 30, 2011


If these guys don't make you smile, I'm not sure what could.  

Monday, September 26, 2011


Last week was one of the crazy busiest weeks of my life.  And although it was a productive type of busy., busy will always be busy.  And slightly stressful.
So.  What got me through last week was the fact the my best friend in the whole entire world came to visit this past weekend.  No one can make me feel better than she can.  No one cares about me quite that much.  No one loves me quite that unconditionally.  No one brings out the real me like she does.  She's just the greatest human I know.  Well., her and my dad.  Anyways.  Seeing her was therapeutic for me.  And now I think I should be happy at least for a straight month.  
So thanks, Beaks.  I miss you already.  

Thursday, September 22, 2011


"Rain on my head- call it brain stormin."  Sorry Lil Wayne., that's not how rainy days work.  
First you should know that this is from a disgusting song called 'Motivation' by Kelly Rolland and Lil Wayne.  And I've only heard that song because I have a good friend who really likes these kinds of songs.  Not mentioning any names.. (you know who you are).  Anyways.  I don't like Lil Wayne normally., mostly because he's dirty and seems to have some weird kind of nasal problem.  But for some reason in this song, I think he's clever.  In a stupid way of course.  And although 'rain on my head- call it brain stormin' is a clever line, that's just not how it works.
Second you should know that today is a rainy day.  That happens a lot here in Greenville which is why I really need to find my umbrella.  Anyways.  Before this rain started, my intentions were to be working on Abstract Algebra this very moment.  But then I went to class and got tired and saw the rain.  So.  I'm drinking coffee on my couch-that-hugs-you couch and blogging.  Then in an hour, I tutor.  Then I'll finally be productive until 7:30, when I tutor again.  Then I'm gonna have pre-vesps coffee with Nikweeta and then have a homework party with Nikweeta.  At least that's the plan for now.   

Big Mama Wayne. She's our mouse.  First her name was Lil Wayne.  Then Shayla saw her and said she was fat so we decided its either gotta be Big Wayne or lil Mama Wayne (who's pregnant with a million lil mouse babies).  So.  Big Mama Wayne is what we call her.  And she likes to eat.  Man does she ever.  She ate my granola bars and got into my brownie mix.  And I'm all about house pets, don't get me wrong.  I even wanted a lil pet mouse when I was younger.  But, I just don't have the budget to feed a family of two.  She hasn't been seen lately, though.  I think she heard the talk about mouse traps.  

In other news.  Lately, Gavin Degraw has been the voice here in our room.  His new album is grand and his voice is angelic.

Also.  Here's another man with the voice of an angel.


  • You inhale about 700,000 of your own skin flakes each day.  I'm sorry.  I shouldn't have even told you.  I love random facts., but this one crosses the line. 
  • I taught a lesson to my seventh graders today on inequalites.  My teacher was impressed.  That was encouraging.  
  • In Idaho, you may not fish on a camel's back.  Silly state laws. 
  • I love my roommate, Ens.  We just have the best tines.   

Friday, September 9, 2011

Caterpillar Astonishment.

So.  I'm flying home this weekend.  Not home exactly, but close to home.  Close enough to see my cousin get married.  Anyways.  That's besides the point.
Right now, I'm on the plane.  And to be honest, I always get a little anxious before I fly.  I say that like I fly a lot., but I don't.  No frequent flyers miles here.  But. I have flown before.  And, well, what can I say?  I've seen movies.  I've seen part of LOST.  I've watched the news.  Planes crash and terrorists exist.  And I know the probability is crazy low, but still, there exists a probability.  Plus. Honestly, how dependable does it sound to put that many people in that heavy of a machine, and throw them up in the sky?  Doesn't sound crazy dependable to me.
Anyways.  I go through security and find gate A2, get my Starbucks Passion Tea, and wait at the gate to board.  Finally I get safely seated in seat 19A and wait for 19B to arrive.  But.  They didn't show, so now I've got this nice extra space next to me.  Anyways.  It's time for take off so I just lean back and prepare to glance out the conveniently placed window. 
So. We're off.  And here's where it gets amazing.  Man.  There aren't really words to even explain it.  But.  There's no way there's not a God.  No. Way.  If anybody has ever flown, they have to know.  The cars get so little and the buildings get so small.  You can see the fields and the lakes and the big rivers.  So many awesome shaped patterns.  And I know I'm somewhat of a mathematical nerd, but that kind of geometry is awesome.  And everything just keeps shrinking.  And that's where you're reminded how HUGE God is.  How big and mighty.  How man can never take credit for this kind of creation.  We're way too stupid to do anything like that. 
And then it all continues to shrink, and you can see that you're coming near the clouds.  Like they're a ceiling.  And then I look over, and the sun is just gleaming through some clouds in this amazing ray of colors.  Pink, orange and yellow mainly.  And that's when you're reminded of the beauty that God possesses.  Once again.  No WAY man could ever do that.  We're too busy to stop and think about beauty these days, none the less come up with it.  But God wasn't.  God is brilliantly beautiful. 
Then it's time to go higher up through the clouds.  And today, they look like sheep's wool.  And then I'm reminded how inviting God is.  Because I just wanted to run and frolic barefoot on those clouds.  As lame as that sounds. 
And then the flight attendant brings me peanuts.  And, while I'm sure the bags of peanuts have gotten much smaller than they used to be, peanuts are my new favorite snack these days.  So.  Yum to that.

Lately, I've been feeling like I just haven't been moving.  I just felt like my life has just been sitting.  I mean, I'm happy.  So content.  Wouldn't really change anything.  I love my friends.  I love my family.  I love my life.  But I just have been needing more God.  And I don't really talk about that much at all.  It's just a 'reverent' sort of thing to me I guess.  And I only talk about it with the right people in the right moments.  So, when people ask me 'how I'm doin with God', I just say "good" and we move on.  But I wasn't satisfied.  But this.  This is awesome.  I needed this reminder of God's beauty and strength and love.  And it's still right next to me.  I'm on sunset level and the clouds are below me looking like the most inviting fluffy rug ever to exist.   
It's like the caterpillar astonishment from Forgotten God by Francis Chan.  He asks his wife if she ever has wondered what goes through a caterpillars head.  He says, "For all its caterpillar life, it crawls around a small patch of dirt and up and down a few plants.  Then one day it take a nap.  A long nap.  And then, what in the world must go through its head when it wakes up to discover it can fly?  What happened to its dirty, plump little worm body?  What does it think when it sees its tiny new body and gorgeous wings?  As believers, we ought to experience this same kind of astonishment when the Holdy Spirit enters our bodies.  We should be stunned in disbelief over becoming a 'new creation' with the Spirit living in us.  As the caterpillar finds its new ability to fly, we should be thrilled over our Spirit-empowered ability to live differently and faithfully."         
And it's this.  This is the astonishment that we're supposed to be living in. 
So.  I can only pray that we all live in that astonishment everyday.   Because it's there everyday.  And it's strong.  And it's beautiful.  And it's ever so inviting.  

Sunday, September 4, 2011

Right Now.

I... kinda wanna drink this.  Javachip frap with peppermint. 

I believe this:

I think these guys are real cute:

And.. I unfortunately kinda miss this whole 'idea'.  Still happy though. Single's not bad at all. 

Thursday, September 1, 2011

Day Two.

Well.  Day two of classes down.  It was good.  And by that I mean, I think I'll make it through this year.  It's just that this whole 'school' thing is getting kind of old.  But.  I think it'll be okay.  

I'm not gonna bore you with talking about which classes I have.  But.  I am kind of excited to pick up a sharp pencil and solve some math problems.  Nerd? Sure. Label me. I can be okay with that.  

Here's what you need to know.  It's like, a big ol' magical itunes that let's you listen to whatever you want.  Grand.  And, I'm currently enjoying it thanks to my roomie's advice. 
Speaking of my roomie, we're about to head to the coffee shop to get some homeworking done.  So.  That I will do.