Friday, March 30, 2012

Condescending Wonka.

Here are just a few waves of randomness floating around in my brain.  

"In The Air Tonight" and "N*ggas In Paris" have been stuck in my head all day.  Please don't judge me.  It's just a fact.  

The 'Empirical Rule' means something completely different in Western Civ than in Probability and Statistics.  I won't define them because I don't care much about the first and you probably don't care much about the latter.  Same goes for "exposition" and "x-position".  Same things.  Different things.  Of course., I always think "x-position" and I've practically forgotten what the other means.  

I've been watching American Idol.  I'm just now finding out the top 13.  Yes yes yes., I do realize that I am way far behind.  So far, I've been in love with Phillip Phillips, Joshua Ledett, and Heejun.  

I really love the song "Simple Song" by the Shins.  Also, I love 'Stay With Me' by Rod Steward.  Old song., new discovery.    

I'm super pumped to see my sister.  One of the reasons is because I really need a haircut.  But.  The main reason is that I miss her incredibly.  I haven't seen my family since January.  That's a long time for me.  

I've discovered 'Condescending Wonka' on twitter.  So funny.  Probably because I love sarcasm.  Here are a few of my favorites:  " You got Starbucks? OMG, please post a picture on instagram." "I'm so glad you typed your opinion in all caps.  Now I know how passionate and serious you are."  "Oh, you own a Northface?  You must go on so many adventures."  "Oh you say cray instead of crazy? I bet you came up with that all on your own."  And. I'll stop. Because I could go on forever. 

Here's my ponderment for the day: Is John Mayer right? Is it really better to say too much than never to say what we need to say again? 

You're A Snowflake.

"Someday we'll know if love can move a mountain. Someday we'll know why the sky is blue. Someday we'll know why I wasn't meant for you.  Someday we'll know why Samson loved Delilah..." But will we?  I'm not so sure we will.  I'm not so sure it's our job to figure everything out because I don't believe we can.  I think the reason people try to figure a lot of things out is because they're not content with not knowing.  And while I do believe we should search for some things, I'm not sure we're supposed to search for everything.  I think there will always be unanswered questions.  I suppose knowing the difference between what we're supposed to figure out and what we're not becomes the hard part.  But sometimes we just need to suck it up and be content in our discontentness (not a word, I know). Because eventually, it will all work itself out.  

Now, along the thought of individuality.  My youth Pastor used to say, "You're unique! Just like everybody else!"  Of course he said it to make us laugh, but I believe it's got an awful lot of truth.  I KNOW it's cliche, but seriously.  No two people are the same.  Just. like. snowflakes. So how does it make sense to try to be?  How many times have we been told this?  "Be yourself."...  "We're each a part of the body of Christ."... "If your friends jump off a bridge, does that mean you should?"  But.  We're not the best at listening.  Our own personal situations can't be defined by someone elses.  We may react to situations and feel the same way about certain things sometimes, but it's not going to be the same 100% of the time.  And when we try to cookie cut things, it can get messier.  So.  Don't try to 'be' someone else.  Sure., survey the crowd and pick an opinion you appreciate.  But don't forget your identity.  

Also, I've decided to reinstate randomness into my blog again.. as if I don't already have enough. Anyways. You know what I mean. 

  • In Japan, Kit Kat has 28 flavors. Including sushi and wasabi. Impressive., but gross. 
  • I got to watch the Voice with my Nikweeta tonight. And., it ended on Cee-lo making an awful decision., but any time with my luf is a good time. 
  • Tomorrow is the weekend. And I get to hang out with Michael and Steph on Saturday. Pumped. 

Monday, March 26, 2012

My Day. My Thoughts. My Luf.

Well.  Today's a pretty good day I think. Considering. I've got tons of stuff to do but my mentality seems to be good enough (thus far) to do most of it successfully. I've calculated that I have about 7 hours worth of actual work to do.  So.. since I can't get it all done.. how much I sacrifice of it will be my choice.  But. Before I get too focused on my homework...  

A Random Thought: Has my path of mathematics drawn me away from my passion to care for people? Of course I care for people.  A lot. But I care a lot for the people that I care about, yknow? I used to have more of a passion for all pepole.  I used to know how to appeal to more people's needs and to guide them.  Once, I wanted to be a social worker.  And now when I think of all that goes with that, there's no way.  Not that I wouldn't care for the people, because I would.  But. It's more a matter of that I've lost some of my means and understanding to do so.
Not sure where I'm going with all of this. But. Just a thought I had. 

In other news. I have this friend named Nikweeta. I do NOT know where I would be without this lovely lady.  What appears to may have been an 'accidental' friendship turns out to be one of the greatest pieces of evidence of God in my life.  I can't believe how much she cares and I'm often astonished by how much she loves me.  Last week, I was spoiled and got to spend 3 days with her. That's a rarity in our busy schedules but it made me so incredibly happy.  Words can hardly describe how great she is. But. I'm so blessed to have her in my life and I cannot WAIT to be in her and Jordan's wedding and see two of my favorite people ever be wed!   

Also. If you're not sure what 8tracks is. You should know. And listen to this playlist. (and no. I'm not a hipster) 

Saturday, March 24, 2012

Thoughts At Panera.

First, I would like to acknowledge that it's been forever and a day since I've blogged.  I'm aware that's not acceptable, but.. I'm over it.  

Secondly, I'm at Panera (St. Louis Bread Co. . . or whatever) and I am [obviously] not doing my homework. But. I am getting there. So that's a plus.
I would like to say that one of the workers here seems to have some trust issues.  First, she came up really close to my face to ask my to put my shoes back on. And no.. I don't really see the problem because my feet are clean... but.. okay; I'll listen.  But.., when she was doing her second round of cleaning, she looks at my face, and then immediately at my shoes. My goodness.  She could at least try to not make it obvious. So, my conclusion is that something in her life has caused her to not trust people my age.  That's unfortunate.  

Also.  Julie and I just had a little discussion on oldest children and youngest children and stereotypes. I must say that no one in my life has helped me acknowledge my own thinking track as much as Julie.  Anyways.  Julie's a fan of proven stereotypes.  I am not.  I don't agree with stereotypes mainly because I've never really fit them.  And also because I'm mathematically minded and I question and analyze the crap out of things.  Julie was a psych major, so when it comes to people and analyzing them, there's not much other choice than stereotypes.  Anyways.  This took a tangent into definitions of words.  Julie and I have found that we define a lot of words differently.  Example: spoiled. To me, this word has an incredibly negative connotation. To Julie, it does not.  She says that spoiled is something that is brought upon a person.  It's not a matter of fault, it's just a matter of the situation.  So.  I realized that Julie's definition of 'spoiled' is the situation at hand.  No ones faults. No ones reactions. Just the situation.  I, on the other hand, define 'spoiled' as the reaction to the situation.  I relate 'spoiled-ness' with unappreciative-ness [not real words., I know], and therefore, spoiled has a negative connotation to me.  Anyways. People define a lot of things differently.  So. Pay attention to that in life.  It's rather interesting.