Thursday, November 10, 2011

A Semester of Realizations.

Realization #1: Genuine peace in all circumstances. (This is the boring realization). It sounds cliche, but I realized that I was letting other peoples circumstances affect my own.  And don't get me wrong, I love listening to people.  I love that people in my life trust me enough to come to me with whatever is going on.  That being said, I found that if I was happy, I felt like I couldn't be if one of my friends was sad.  And if I was 'sad', I felt like I couldn't talk to my happy friends for the reason that it might bring them down.  So I decided that I am going to just be happy all the time.  And that means being intentional about being happy instead of just not being sad.

Realization #2: Grilled Cheese Theory and the Power of Possibility.  Well.  If you're not familiar with my Grilled Cheese Theory, that's because I need to give it a better name.  It probably should be something more along the lines of... the I-Didn't-Want-It-But-I-Thought-I-Did Theory.  Obviously I need work on the naming of my theories.  Anyways.  All it means is that there are certain things that we decide that we like.  (This was invented with the example of males).  So we like this 'thing'.  And day after day, we keep liking it.  And in the process of telling ourselves that we like this 'thing', we've actually stopped liking it.  But, we hardly realize that we've stopped.  Until.. we finally figure out that we actually don't like this 'thing' anymore, and we only thought we still liked it because once upon a time.. we liked it.  Anyways.  Turns out, this I-Didn't-Want-It-But-I-Thought-I-Did Theory is real.  For me anyways.  Because I 'liked' this guy.  [I kinda hate the word 'like' in this context, p.s.] He wasn't more than a friend to me, nor did I ever pursue anything beyond that, but he's just a solid good guy and inevitably.. feelings were developed.  Anyways.  This is where the 'possibility' factor come in.  Once I was honest with him about where I was, and the possibilty went away, I felt so refreshed.  So relieved that the Grilled Cheese Theory was true in this instance and kind of instantly, I moved on. And that's that one. 

Realization #3:  I don't want to teach.  If you read my last post, you can see the details, but.. basically, my passion is for Math and not for teaching it.  Therefore, I don't see the logic in learning to teach anymore, so I'm ditching Education as part of my education.  Mathematics it is.  [You can choose to relate this to the Grilled Cheese Theory as well, because.. it's true]

And those are my realizations.  In about 10 minutes, I'll be taking a Spanish placement test to see how I .. well.. place in the Spanish class-taking process.  Whether or not I tell you the results depends on my outcome.  
Soon after that, I get to roadtrip to Nashville with two of my besties, Ens and Blakeley.  Blake's sister is getting married tomorrow, so that's the main reason to our adventure.  That and to have the weekend of our lives and forgetting about responsibilites.  //


  1. I really hope you have fun there, my darlin. :) And I'm each realization is a good one, not boring. :)

  2. Grilled Cheese Theory. I like it (: Don't EVER change the name, it has way to much meaning this way. (: